Hurt!

What have I become?

My Sweetest friend

Everyone I know

Goes away in the end

You could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

Trent Reznor

Guess 'ole Trent head the nail on the head with this one. Seems all my life I've been trying to find someone that would make me happy with myself. Unbeknownst to me that person does not exist. I've hurt people along the way....Allowed them to fall in love with me and then do things that hurt them. All because I was terribly unhappy with who I was. It's taken me thirty eight years to realize this. But I have done so.

I feel like i'm finally getting my life on track. I'm in a job that I love, my relationship with my son is stronger now than it ever was, And romantically i'm taking it as it comes. Not pushing too much and just letting fate hand me what it wants. Sometimes when you realize that your not in control and let God, Fate, or whatever you call it take over it really comes much easier.

I guess that if anyone reading this is someone that I've hurt in some way please take this as my apology. I know i've done wrong by you and I'm truly sorry. May your days be long and your nights pleasant.

Hit that 'lil envelope there and drop me a line. Say HI or whatever.

THE MED!

Still healing the maimed and broken at The Med here in Memphis. Love the trauma stuff. Amazing how it can go from a sleepy night to wide FREAKING open in like two seconds. Love going to the roof to meet the helicopters. Like to watch them come in. They have a lot of ex-military pilots working for them, and they like to be a little fancy in their landings. And their take offs. Trying to get some pics of the choppers but sometimes it just dont work out. But you know my job would be pretty slow if it wasn't for SOME DUDE beating the hell, cutting, and shooting everybody. Thats the answer you get when you ask someone "who did this?" "Some dude." Jeez this guy has got to be the busiest SOB in town. All in all I think it's pretty cool.
Of course working with the med students and residents can be fun. Esp when you know more than they do. But all in all most of then are pretty cool and it's fun to work with them. It just is kinda depressing that all of them are way younger than me. Esp when they call me SIR.
But anyway on the personal front. Not much going on. Dating a little but mainly looking for a house at a price and in a neighborhood that I like. Amazing how much they want for a house so small. Why can't I win the lottery and be able to buy what I want? Of course the fact that I don't buy tickets might have something to do with not winning. What you think?
Trying to spend time with Jeremy (my son). We are getting into a hunting club down in Greenwood MS. Really looking forward to this season. Me especially, I guess cause I know that probably after this season he is gonna be hunting those two legged deers alot harder. Guess I need to enjoy the time I have as much as possible. 'Cause before I know it he'll be talking to me just enuff to get the car keys and money. Geez, just thinking 'bout that makes me feel old!
Any how, thats my life to date. Drop me a line tell me 'bout yours.

Amazing the things that you can find while cruising the delta. Saw the ole timer riding down the side of the highway. Had to stop and get a pic of this rolling piece of art. LOL!
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Life Goes On!

Well, Dear Readers, it's been a while since I last posted. Life continues to throw me curves. Went back to the Delta to see if things could be saved. But there has been way too much water under the bridge. The forgiving for the past hurts was do-able. It was the forgetting that was hard. So our paths have split. I'll let you read that as you will.
As far as work goes it's great. I'm working at The Regional Medical Center in Memphis. More commonly know as THE MED. I'm doing Shock Trauma now. It's like Life in the ER on TLC. I love it. Nothing is ever the same. It's great to actually feel like your doing something. I'm doing full time here and signed a two year contract. So I guess i'm here for two years. But the money is ok and I like it so life is good.
So tell me whats happening with you. Update me on your life. And I promise to do better updating here.

Here I am in the position again.I know I've been lax in posting of late. But life has really been in a turmoil of late. Won't bore you with the details. Just let it suffice to say that a bad country song could be written from my life. Anyway, just letting my followers know that I'm still alive.
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