The Ache Never Ends.

Duality
I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on...

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited as my times elapsed
Now all I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact
You cannot kill what you did not create

I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice

(I push my fingers into my) eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on, I'm not gonna make it!

Put me back together or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the pieces, then you can leave me alone
Tell me the reality is better than the dream
But I found out the hard way - nothing is what it seems

(I push my fingers into my) eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on, I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got - all I've got is insane

(I push my fingers into my) eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on, I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got - all I've got is insane

Lyrics from Slipknot

Well, Dear Reader. You may ask why I've posted this today. Guess it's because it describes my state of mind of late. Been having a bit of an emotional crisis of late. My plans for traveling further have fallen through. Can't seem to find a company that wants to pay more than I'm making right now. Can't see leaving what I got to go away and make the same money.
I'm also having a bit of crisis at home. Things have gotten shaky with the wife. Things were rough before I went to Connecticut, but since I've been back it has only gotten worse. We have grown so far apart that I'm not really sure we can grow back together. Thinking that it might be time to fly solo. Damn life can be so hard sometimes. Losing lots of sleep and about thirty two pounds since I've been home. Not that the weight lose is a bad thing.
So I guess that this is my apology to y'all, my reader, for not posting much of late. Got lots going on. So how's things in your neck of the woods? Post a comment and say HI.